dying inside…

                owww summer’s over… goodbye extreme heat… goodbye drinking sessions… back to school, like it but kinda hate it too… no more sleepless nights with insane pranks… misadventures with my crazy and stupid friends… yes, summer was great… sigh… hiding what i truly feel…

                i lost her… i completely lost her… no excuse for breaking my heart again… i guess that’s how the story ends… just a taste of how it feels to have her back… i’m not cleaning up for myself… i know it was my fault… making her feel bad all the time… if only i can turn back the time… if only… mother fuckin’ me… you’ll realize what you have when you already lost it… now i’m back to this "moving on" thingy… endless yearning…

                i’ll stop pretending… i still want her back… it’s hard to forget her… tried to focus my attention to different things… girls… sigh… i just find myself fooling myself… who am i kidding..? can’t blame her for finding someone much much better than her stupid ex… yeah me… i guess i truly deserve to get hurt like this… she’s like spitting in my face… telling me how stupid i am… making me feel jealous… yeah she did it… again… i even called her "insensitive piece of shit"… sorry… yeah, do what you want… i deserve it…

                i’m sorry for hurting you… i know you’re happy now… i just wish you all the best… don’t change… i hope those unpleasant things i heard weren’t true… psst! i’m just here…