she swallowed evertything she said…

                 and yes it happened… i knew it since then… damn… my life is one hell of a joke… if loving someone more than your life is a crime, then i must be stoned to death… crucify me… can’t describe how i feel… all of a sudden it’s over without any how and why… i think i deserve at least a little respect… can’t you at least tell it to me yourself..? never mind…
                   here i go again… my fist to the wall… crying without tears… those fucking words running through my mind… fucking promises died along with my trust and faith… her heavenly smiles are haunting me like hell… fucking memories of so called invulnerable love… i guess giving up everything isn’t enough for you…
                  don’t know how many bottles of beer can ease this feeling… maybe not enough… escape is not an option… people might think that this is ordinary… oh yes it is… now i know how weird the feeling is… it’s not easy… she’s a ghost i can’t forget… the one you love the most is the one who can hurt you that much… sigh…   
                 yes, i know i’m not perfect… i hurt you too… i’m not even deserving of your love… i guess expecting too much made me stupid… i loved her… i gave up almost everything for her… now i’m here, throwing up everything… trying to forget all the fucking favors and sacrifices…
                 i understand… you were hurt and moved on… i don’t have the right to stop you from finding someone that will make you happy and will love you more than i do… stupid love lines… i guess this is the final goodbye… til’ then…